71: Making amends [Locked to Shito]

[samuraiprosecutor]

Mr....Shito. If I may have a word?

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[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

Fuck you. I'll kill you.

[samuraiprosecutor]

It's not difficult to see what the boy sees in you.

[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

You don't know anything. You're just a jerk who thinks he's better than people. Why bother apologizing to someone like me?

[samuraiprosecutor]

Because my actions were clearly wrong. At least...as clearly as I can make out from the conversation that accompanied them. Under normal circumstances I'd never willingly take advantage of anyone in such a position. It sickens me to think there are any circumstances that could bring me to that, with or without the community's influence.

[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

And yet you mock me and my boyfriend, even though you sought me out to apologize. I didn't have to accept the apology. It's not my job to make you feel better.

We're no better than trash to you, and you only did it to make yourself feel better.

[samuraiprosecutor]

...Considering how infrequently we've spoken, I'd like to know where you've gotten such an inaccurate impression. I'll readily admit to disliking Mikk's hoodlum cousin for numerous, extremely valid reasons, but I don't know you well enough to judge whether you're "better than trash" or not.

My apology was made in good faith. Despite the reaction it was met with, it will remain whether you choose to accept it or not.

[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

I've seen you around. You're the sort of person who thinks you can judge other people, and so am I. I'm not interested in you, like I said before. What I don't understand is why you can't accept that.

I'm glad I don't remember kissing you. The thought of kissing someone with the look you had on your face in that picture disgusts me.

[samuraiprosecutor]

What I don't understand is what could possibly be giving you the impression that I don't.

If it's any consolation, that incident had to have been the most stomach-churning experience of the evening for me as well. I find the thought of having any sort of intimate contact with a drunken teenager to be absolutely abhorrent. I don't know what in God's name could have possessed me to stoop to that.

[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

Imagine if you'd known I'm not a teenager at all, but an undead monster.

[samuraiprosecutor]

...A what?

[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

I'm a zombie.

[samuraiprosecutor]

...Of the...flesh-eating variety or...?

[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

I don't usually give in to that urge.

[samuraiprosecutor]

...

And you're not a teenager?

[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

I was born about three centuries ago. I stopped ageing when I reached my teens. You're not the first person who's found my body so desirable when I wasn't in a position to say no, either.

Why do you think Devit was so determined to protect me?

1/3

[samuraiprosecutor]

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[samuraiprosecutor]

Oh good God.

[samuraiprosecutor]

I am sorry. Truly. My behavior...whatever it was...was completely inexcusable, and would have been regardless of who or what you are. You aren't under any obligation to accept my apology, but please believe me when I say that it is sincere.

[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

Next time you think it's funny to mock Devit by taking something that's his, I will kill you. He's annoying, selfish, and foolish, but he is a good person. He's lost enough in his life.

But your apology is accepted, this time.

[samuraiprosecutor]

...Thank you.

I'm afraid it's difficult for me to find the good in anyone who seems to take so much pleasure in maliciously harming others. His cousin is a monster, and I've seen little evidence to suggest that the boy is--or wants to be--any different.

[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

It's easy to assume that the face that someone shows the world is the real one. Why should he trust you with his real feelings?

Why should I?

[samuraiprosecutor]

Perhaps you shouldn't. Unlike some people, I see no need to soften or sugarcoat my opinions. I speak what I see as the truth. If you're averse to being judged on a personal level, you may prefer to keep your real feelings to yourself and leave me to judge by the only evidence I'm given.

[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

Then judge me by what you've seen. It doesn't mean I have to like you, or agree with you. You know nothing about me that's of any importance.

[samuraiprosecutor]

Fair enough. I certainly can't claim that it's not tempting...the idea of never facing a truly meaningful judgment, never having your flaws and foibles scrutinized. Not that the community seems willing to allow any of us that luxury, of course, but I can't fault you for clinging to it while you still can.

As for your...partner, there is one thing I'm curious to know. Obviously whether or not you answer is up to you.

Does he carry as much blood on his hands as Mikk does?

[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

Funny you think that I have that option. Just because I'm not interested in telling you everything so you can make some kind of assessment of who I am doesn't mean there aren't people in my life who know.

He's my boyfriend, not my partner, and I don't know or care the answer to your question. I don't know how many people either of them has killed, but I believe Devit isn't a killer at heart.