71: Making amends [Locked to Shito]

[samuraiprosecutor]

Mr....Shito. If I may have a word?

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[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

That would be easier said than done given how many he sent

No one ever said that Devit was a logical person. But you hold yourself to a higher standard.

[samuraiprosecutor]

Ordinarily I hold myself to the highest of standards. This...lapse in judgment isn't something I would ever have believed myself capable of. I've been taken advantage of far too often to ever want to do the same to anyone else.

...Least of all an individual I thought was a minor, for God's sake.

[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

Hmm, I guess anyone has circumstances under which they'd do something horrible.

[samuraiprosecutor]

That doesn't absolve them of their responsibility for it. Besides which, for me to stoop to that level should have required much more radical circumstances than one drunken night. I've been drinking since my youth. I know how to hold my liquor. I know I'm perfectly capable of keeping myself under control, or some semblance of it. Yet my behavior last night was utterly shameful. Short of the community having a hand in more than just getting us there, I have absolutely no explanation for my actions.

[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

Well I've known that drinking has a terrible effect on me for centuries, too. I never would have drunk at a party like that unless I was forced to, or tricked into it. So I have to assume the community forced me.

[samuraiprosecutor]

It forced us to drink, perhaps. Tempting as it would be to blame the community for the entire debacle, I can't simply throw away all responsibility without real evidence that it forced us to do anything beyond that. I've never been drunk to the point of a total blackout before. I can't say definitively that that result isn't possible, even if it seems completely atypical for me.

[tiedbyfate.livejournal.com]

It's hard to know. Even a tiny amount of alcohol has that sort of effect on me, though I've never rarely actually blacked out, either.